There is Reason: why I'm Selfish

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Ok!.. a lot of people has been calling me..

"Madamot","Kuripot"..

They say i'm selfish in every kind of way..

even washing the dishes..

but..

the truth is..

there is a reason why i am selfish..

Ok.. another one of my oh so short stories..

A Long time ago(it was in 9th grade)

In a kingdom far far away(Sacred Heart College)

let's cut the storytelling style..

back then.. when i transfered at SHC..

it was pretty hard to fit in..

it was hard to find a friend..

well i got some friends.. but i can never call them my real "FRIENDS"

but honestly.. i was generous back then(yeah and i know it's hard to believe.)

during Christmas parties.. i had these coins.. a lot of them..

I never really cared for money back then.. so i just threw it all up whenever we

have an "Agawan" session..

they all say.. ambait mo tlga "ZING!"

yeah.. and i was all.. thankz.. and all that..

but some of them.. took advantage of me..

they made friends to me so that they can use my money.

of course i was stupid back.. so i fell from there tricks..

but every time i crossed paths with those guys..

they just " DEADMA" me..

so anyway... those were one of the reasons..

the other was..

ahmm.. it kinda involved a girl..

so that was in 9th grade.. i had a crush on this girl..

let's just call her. spaghetti..

so i really like spaghetti.. but she doesn't feel the same way to me..

i arranged a plan.. in order to get close to her..

i had to get close to her close friend..

so i did just that.. soon i got her #...

we text and all.. almost everyday.. buut..

unfortunately.. she runs out of load very quick..

so what i did is...

i gave her load for once..

she was surprised that i gave her load..

well.. i like her. i wanna text her.. so i gave her load..

anyway.. every time she needs load.. she just asks me..

and then i automatically give her load.

I've been doing that for the entire summer..

i was running out of money..

so the bad thing is..

ahmm...

yess.. i was stealing from my grandfather's unlimited load..

i was secretly passing load to her whenever my grandad's asleep..

well as 4th year school year draws near.. she begins to txt occasionally..

until the time came.. she never txted or chat with me anymore..

you know..

before i knew it.. she already had a boyfriend..

she didn't even tell me..

ouch..

that night.. i felt i was used..

i felt sorry for myself..

i swore never to do anything like that ever again..

NEVER!

sometime she texts me asking for load..

yeah right!.. so i just ignores her text..

so whenever someone asks me..

palibre naman!.. pautang naman...

this is the only thing that comes out of my mouth..

"wala akong pera!"

ANT THAT'S MY STORY..

but i still stay generous.. to my bestfriends and special friends..

i know i can trust them..

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What's missing?

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it's been a long time since i wrote something..

a lot has happened lately...

but something just seems to bother me..

i know this is getting kinda old..

but i have to say this..

She' awfully loves me a lot..

i'm supposed to be happy and all..

but..

i still don't love her..

it's kinda complicated.. and confusing..

but somehow.. I'm missing something.

what is it..

(blogs about love is getting kinda corney)

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Last Night.

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phew!XD

last night was a blast..

had eaten a lot!:)

thanks to the débutante..

awesome night..:)

still..

in every party iv'e been. like a debut..

i've never seen a lot of people dance in a dance floor..

well..

they dance.. for a few seconds..

then they return to there seats.. shy??

yeah..

meeeen.. i wanna experience a party like..

people dance their ass off as if there is no tomorrow..

still!..

great party though..:)

love the food!XD

First time in a debut..

on to the next!XD 9/5/10

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She's Awesome!

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have i ever told you.
about the most awesome girl i've met..
she never lets you down..
she's always there for you..
she makes you feel special!..
she is crazy and imaginative..
she can make you insane!
she never gives up on you!..
she's a bit shy.. but not to me!

she's fearless..
she never hated me..
she never got angry at me..
she never betrays me!..
she make's you insane!..
she is just about most absolute wackiest person I've ever met!
she screams when she is exited!
she cries when she is sad..
she laughs when she is happy..(duH! everyone does!)
she knows many strange pronunciations and some languages..
she comforts me..
she likes yellow green!
she likes miney!..
she calls me brew!..
and the best part is..
she makes me Happy!..
she is not my girlfriend!..
Oh no!..
She is my bestfriend!..
and I love her as a bestfriend!.

on september 5 she'll turn 18!..

be fearless My Dear Sister!:)

Advance Happy Birthday "Sizzling Sizig"
Love ya!


Caitlin Crosby - Flaws(1)

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YEah! Very Honest..

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as i write this..
i would like to let you know..
how burned up my blood is earlier today..
well i took the risk..
i don't wanna fail..
so i used some xerox copies of the formulas
for our calculus exam..
it was supposed to be secret..
now one can find out..
when i received the xerox..
i noticed that the items were starting at 6-15..
i was curious cause maybe i didn't receive 1-5..
so i asked my mate P*******..
Z: uy!.. 6-15 lang b tlga to?
she looked at me as if i'm a stupid idiot
who was not thinking..
P:.... hindi ba obvious!..
when she looked at me like that..
i felt really angry!..
i wasn't showing it then but i felt the burn!..
was it wrong to ask??
Fuck her!.. she's a suck up to the valedictorians.!
(dun lang sya mabait!)
moments later..
i was analyzing our very top secret xerox copy..
then one of my mates who had no idea about the secret xerox..
grabbed it out of my hand and took a look at it..

then one of my mates noticed it..
K: "ZING" iyo ba ung xerox na un?
Z: i nodded my head."oo"
K: an tanga tanga naman eh!..
(tangi**! isa pa naman to!.. para naman binigay ko
eh hinalbot naman sa kamay q!.)
it was hell day exams lately.. and it fucked up my mood!..
really those things they said!..
they make me look like an idiot!..
F*ck them!..
Maybe it was better if i failed that exam instead of
being apart of their stupid Leackage!..

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Honesty is The best Policy?

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Weeee! i'm using the MSEUF Wi-Fi here!..
hahah! the net speed is really fast!XD
awesome!..
tomorrow is the "nose bleed day"
our major subjects are all tomorrow..
the start of our midterms.
Calculus
Probability and statistics..
I can review our Statistics subjects..
but the Calculus..
Man..
it's so freaking hard..
i survived preliminary.. but midterms..
i don't think i can..

something happened just this morning...
A mate of mine got the midterms examination paper..
yay! leackage!..
all we need to do is get our smartest classmates to answer that
paper.. and the exam tomorrow will just be a walk in the park..
to be honest..
i kinda feel guilty trying to be apart of this..
people worked their ass off!.. just to pass that exam and were just
gonna copy it as easy as that?..

man!..
but i really need those answers.!
its gonna be brutal tomorrow..
Shit!.. the clock is ticking... better make a choice..
Cheat or Don't Cheat..
F*ck!..


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Maybe

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Maybe.. Just maybe..
She is the One?:)
I Don't Know..
Maybe!.. just maybe..

The Shy Type

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it's been a while since iv'e been there..

my old school!..

really missed it.. my best friend was waiting for me there..

we were gonna meet and bond all day..

on my way i saw her..

she was wearing a blue shirt with tight jeans and

a pair of black doll shoes..

a simple attire.. that i rarely see for most college girls.

i like it when girls wear doll shoes.. looks so cute!:)

K: Uy "Zing"!

Z: Oh K*****!.. andito k pla..

K: san k pupunta?

Z: pnthan q mga kaklase q. nuod kme talent expo kaw ba??

K: intayin q p mga classmates q.:)

Z: ah ok cge bbye!:)

K: bye!:)

i was shocked.. never expected to see her..

so i went for my bestfriend.. she was there.. not much has changed from her..

she still looks cute!..

so we went out to find another friend..

then i saw her again. sitting alone by the corner..

my bestfriend asked me to go sit with her for a while.

keep her company..

so yeah.. i sat near to her.. and we talked..

she was still all shy and her head is always facing down..

her short hair follows so i can't see her face very clearly..

Z: bat lage kang nakatungo?

K:nkakahiya nga kasi.

Z: eto tlga oh.:)

her black doll shoes was really amusing me..

it really looked good on her..

Z: nka doll shoes ka ngayon ah..

as i said that to her.. her two little feet..

compressed. as if she wants to hide her feet..

K:wag mu naman tingnan.:)

Z: sige sige..

Z: tara picture naman.

K:sige2

so as we continue to talk and all..

the moment was even better..

the sackrace contest competition nearby..

was playing soft and sweet soundtracks..

very perfect..

for the first time in my life.. i never felt shy..

i was talking to her straight.. and was having no nervous breakdown.:)

her classmates came.. so i said goodbye to her..:)

that really made my day..

i don't know why but i'm beginning to fall from a

very tall cliff!..

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How The Heck did that happen??

wait wait!!
i was a bit shocked.. and confused..
i was viewing Ja*** profile.. and to my surprise
his status was in a relationship..
what's more shocking is the girl he's in a relationship with..
Ha***..
i mean how the heck did that happen..
i know their friends and all.. but
imagining this ever happening is really...
really..Shit i can't think of a word.. anyway!..
this is very unexpected!..
things were very fast..
yeah i know.. she's part of my past..
but i am so over her right now..
just very shocked of how the heck did that happen?

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Ms.. Know it all

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You really know how to piss me off real quick..
just not showing it..
sometimes you think you know everything..
You ruined my DRAWING!..
Deep inside it pissed me off..
you didn't even asked for my permission to erase
the nose and edit it a little..
MAN!..
Earlier you lectured me about our probability topic..
I was right at one part and you keep on disagreeing!
I don't even know what to say anymore..


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DAM IT!!

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sige.. anhirap i explain pag english..
itatagalog ko muna to..
grabe!
ang weird ng feeling..
buti na lang anjan ung bestfriend ko..
kagabi.. me nangyareng kagabi..
bat kaya ganon??
naguusa lang kme sa phone..
tapos bigla ako tinanong kung me nililigawan
ba daw akong iba...
sabi ko Oo..
ayun.. prang nagtampo sya..
matagal n xang nagswesweet talk.. tas iba naman pla habol..
sbi ko.. sya na nga yung mlapit ko nang ligawan.. MALAPIT NA..
naku iba ang nagyare.. sinabe ko lang yun..
SINAGOT NA AKO KAAGAD!..
hindi ko akalin..
1 beses pa langkami ngkikita..
at 3 linggo pa lang kme magkakilala..
m]aba.. masyado ata maagap ahhh..
OO alam ko na iniisip mo mambabasa..
parang ako yung babae...
tae wala akong pake.. basta ganun ako..
first kita.. gusto ikaw ang maging first at last ko..
alam kong weird para sa lalake ang magsabe nito..
pero sana naman tagalan muna natin..
Gl******! buti nalang anjan ka..
tinulungan mo ako kgbe..
buti naman na understand nya ko..
sinabihan kasi nya ako ng I LOVE YOU!..
anlutong...
sinabihan ko naman syang.. I LIKE YOU TOO..
sana nagets nya.. na nasa developing stage pa lang ako..
Oo ang kiri ng sagot ko.. para akong tanga..
pero.. kailangan ko talagang magpakatotoo..
Like pa lang kita.. wag mung dalian...
bigyan mo ako ng oras.. mahal n din kita!..
para nga akong babae..(hindi ako bakla)
pero ganyan talaga pag first..
buti naintindihan nya ako..
sabi nya.. Ok lng na Love nya ako
at Like ko sya..
Salamat!:) para nraramdaman ko kasi hindi pa ako handa..
Magigi kitang responsibilidad.. pag naging tayo..
Pasensya na.. pero ganun talaga ako..
Salamat talaga nang marami "G"!
matuturing talaga kita matalik na kaibigan!:)
salamat alaga kagabi.. wala sana akong mapupuntahan
kagabi kung wala ka!..
ayun.. salamat sa lahat!..
Peace!

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That's My Sister!:)

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remember when i said that last Saturday was one of my
saddest days ever..? turns out it was one of my happiest..:)

you see. i was feeling so lonely that day.. i called my sister to pick
me up.. cause i wanna sleep at hermana..
it's been a while since i saw my sister..
She's training for a month in manila..
something about a job for BDO..

there i waited for her to come..
eventually she came.. with the car..
so we sat there and chat.. she never says much
but somehow i knew she missed me..

she asked me if we can buy some food..
i said yeah sure!.. How about McDonald's?
so yeah we went there..
KKB for sure...
Grace: Zing Ibili mo ako ng isang regular fries atsaka ung 39ers.
Zing: ok2 te.. akina yung pera..
so i went straight to the register to order..
then.. "ZING!!"
a friend of mine called me.. so we greet each other.
talked for a little... after that i went to the register to order..
Zing: Tae! anu nga ba yung order ni ate??
Employee: Sir anu pong order nyu?
Zing: ahm isa pong regular burger McDo.. (my order)
taposs.. ahhhh..(shet anu nga ba yung order ni te?)
Employee: Sir??
Zing: anu ba po ung 39ers??
Employee: sir eto pong chicken sandwich, mcsavers..
Zing: ahh cge po ung chicken sandwich nlng..
Employee: cge po sir..

So i got back to the car with the food..
and then..
Grace: ZIng! anu to nsan na ung 39ers q na cheese??
Zing: Te! nlimutan q kinausap kc aq nung mate q.. nlmtan q..
Grace: Naku wag mung kainin yang fries q!
Zing: Eh fries q yan ahh..
Grace: anu ka sabe q me fries!
Zing: Tae!.. cge na nga..

So yeah.. She was a bit mad..
instead of me wanting to yell her back and call her a stupid
hotheaded old woman!..

I Laughed!..:)
cause you know.. no matter how much
she gets angry and shit. i Know that she missed me.
i was just happy i got to spent some time with my sister..:)

I Know she's a paranoid hotheaded person..
But she is my paranoid hotheaded person..
never thought id's say this but..

I Love You Mary Grace Catherine J. Trinidad!
My Sister.:)

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